A Clown (English Version)

”To love is not to have, ” explained Teodhor, not a few of these quotes come out of the mouths of people out there, but can this incident happen to yourself?

When someone loves but can have, will they continue to fight? even though you know you won be rewarded? Or are you looking for a replacement? hard choice for people who are already intoxicated by love.

Teodhor, a 27 year old single man, is handsome, smart and owns a high-asset technology startup company. symmetrical lined jaw, sharp eyes with honey brown irises, slightly dark skin but looks erotic. anyone who sees will surely be stunned at the first blink, but is behind all that happiness?

Congratulations on reading this story for those of you who feel that their hearts are one-sided. Wait, is it because he already belongs to someone else? Or because parents don approve? or something else? lets read this story, at least you understand what this main role feels.

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The atmosphere of the cafe looks deserted, there are only a few visitors who come, maybe because it is raining outside. In the corner of the cafe right on the side of the large glass that leads to the street, a man is sitting casually looking out the glass with someone expecting someone to come.

The clock shows 15:55. Again at 4. It has been almost an hour for Teo to wait, yes, he is Teodhor, a 27 year old single man who is the leader of a startup company with high assets. Teo tries to get back in touch with Lee, a close friend from middle school. The two of them are very close even from middle school. Middle school and college are the same, although Lee is a year behind. For some reason, he couldn continue his studies.

Teo sighed annoyed because Lee was always late and returned to busy himself with the existing book, gradually Teo heard the song playing in the cafe, ah … That song, its been a long time since Jeff Bernats song Still. The tightness in his chest felt heavy again, remembering what had happened earlier.

… Ive been tryna find away to numb all this pain

Since youve been away

I don wanna feel anymore

And theres probably people telling you

that im doing fine

Just taking my time

Although it appears that im strong

Its still hurts …

Memories of bad memories began to fill his head, the lyric part is the one that best describes his current situation, even though its been 5 years. But the pain is still there. Teo tries to control himself again so that Lee doesn know, because his friend doesn like seeing Teo sad, especially just because of a woman.

The clock shows 4 oclock, ”Where the hell is that idiot again? ” Teo muttered under his breath.

Not long after the cafe door opened there was an Asian-looking man came, with a height of about 174cm. Well-built came with his relaxed.

”Hello bro! ” Greet Lee innocently already an hour late.

”From where? ” Theo replied curtly.

”Usually, your majesty is angry because I failed to get a client from Japan, I don want to hear the lecture first, ” replied Lee, pulling a chair.

The man whose full name is Lee Wang is the CEO of Wangs company. Lees father is a great business man who started his career at the age of 23 years, capitalized on his experience and his fathers desperation to establish a manufacturing company and is now the largest manufacturing company in Indonesia.

Lee as the successor to Wangs company is no less great. He completed his Double Degree course in only 3 years, his intelligence in seeing an opportunity in business is inversely proportional to his unruly nature, sometimes Lee can skip work for a full month if he is bored with company activities. . Fortunately, the CEO of the company where he works is his own father, although it is difficult to manage Lee is really very smart in business.

”Oh, how much is it now? ” Ask Theo.

”If you count the three, its really bad luck that Im being lectured all the time, ”

”Does this have anything to do with you because you don want to be matched with your fathers business partner? ”

”Maybe? Thats why hes become more sensitive in everything, especially when it comes to the company. ”

”Whats the reason you don want to get married? ”

”I still want to be free, I still want to play here and there, after all, Im only 27 years old, not yet 30. I can still do it next year, ”

”Isn it better to just accept the offer from your father? It can also improve the company and you can become CEO faster, ”

”You
e really talkative, don you think, now that you
e looking at yourself, why aren you married? Even though you
e the CEO, you
e pretty well-established, who wouldn want to be with you? ” Lee answered in surprise.

Its true what Lee said, talking is easy but doing it is difficult, how can you not? Asking Lee to get married while Im not married yet even trapped in the bitter past to remember.

”Never mind, don force me to get married, marriage can be relaxed anytime, ” said Lee.

Theo was silent.

”So what do you want to talk about? To call me here? If its not important Ill punch you in the face, ” continued Lee breaking the silence.

”My mother forced me to come to the matchmaking event that she made with her friends, ” said Teo nonchalantly as he took a sip of coffee.

”Well … Now why don you just accept it? ”

”You know my situation, even i- ”

”How many times have I told you to get rid of that girl in your mind, realizes Teo! ” Lee exclaimed quickly cutting off the conversation.

”But Lee, you know how- ”

”TEO AWARE YOU CANT CHANGE ANYTHING! ” Lee answered loudly so that one room could be heard.

”Sorry … ” said Lee because he felt guilty for yelling at Teo.

”Its okay Lee … I understand why you are like this, ”

”Teo, I beg you not to be trapped in the past! ”

”Ive tried Lee, but every time I try, I can , ”

”Okay, I don want to talk about this because in the end you have your own choices, ” said Lee, not wanting to know.

The conversation continued with business discussions, the clock was already 17.11.

”Sorry, Teo, I have to go, I have a meeting, ” said Lee, standing up from the bench.

”Okay Lee, I understand, ” Teo said while hugging his best friend.

Silence began to feel when Lee left the Cafe, Teo was still thinking why he could be trapped in the past, is he not handsome enough? Is he less well established? He has everything a man could want, but unfortunately Teo doesn have what other men have, which is love.

The rain outside began to subside, the sky began to turn orange, indicating that the sun was about to set into night.

Teo looked out the cafe window, the ground was still wet from the rain earlier, should he leave this city? In order to forget what happened in the past, because too many memories happened in this city.

Across the cafe, a young couple is seen joking together, judging by their uniforms, they are still in high school, ah.. The beauty of love, when someone is intoxicated with love they will only focus on their partner, but at some point it is love that hurts the most. Can love be this complicated? Never thought before that first love would give him so much pain.

Shadows of the past began to remember again, how the meeting could happen. Was it intentional or not? I don know, what you should know at that time was that she was the most beautiful woman Ive ever met.

… Hey you over there!

How are you?

Are you happy?

Has it ever crossed your mind about me?

I am still here

In this city

With the same feeling

I am waiting for you here

Hope you come back

With your smile …

Many words cannot be spoken by mouth, what is said is not necessarily the same as feelings. Even though it was for a moment, he was closely stored in memory, as part of the journey of the life story that Teo would tell after this.

There are no regrets knowing you, whatever it is, he is grateful for coloring his first day. Even though he finally painted it gray.

Happy reading for those of you who are in love, just a reminder that sometimes expectations don match reality. This story is specially written for people who have stopped in their hearts, from someone who is still waiting for confirmation until now.