Ain’t Scared

”DJ! Come and eat! We might get late. Are you going to be lazy on our recognition day?! Not just because you are the valedictorian of our batch, you are already special, don be late and let us, graduates, wait. The thickness of its face. ”

I just rolled my eyes at what Ivy said. She says a lot which is not so important. Its just annoying and it makes my ear ache.

I have prepared myself for our recognition day, and yes, I am the Valedictorian of our batch. Not to brag, but I didn aspire and thought that I would be valedictorian. Im running for the position of valedictorian without knowing it. It was only trippings and gimmicks of my friends, including Ivy.

Ciara is fixing me now. She is the only one who is good at putting decorations on the face of the four of us. She also fixed my hair, I can say that she is really good.

”Are you excited, DJ? Its our recognition day! And your parents will come even though its not Christmas or New Year! I can believe you
e so special and important to their lives, you
e not as beautiful as me. ” I just laughed a little at what Ciara said.

The truth is that I was nervous so I couldn speak or answer what they were saying. I just smiled in the mirror, staring at myself. I seriously felt very nervous.

I missed my family so much. My family will go to recognition day even though they didn do it before, maybe because I was valedictorian thats why they decided to go home for a while.

”Are you ready? ” I smiled when I saw how handsome my boyfriend was. I nodded, kissed him on the cheek, and hugged him.

”I am, but Im nervous, Love. ”

He kissed my forehead. ”Congratulations, Love. You deserve it. ” He smiled very sweetly and then hugged me tightly. We stayed in that position for a few minutes before releasing each other.

I took a deep breath and calmed myself down before getting out of the car. This is it.

The ceremony has begun. I was sitting in the middle of the crowd, looking around. Checking and finding out if my family is already here. I can wait to see and hug them. We haven seen each other in months.

Many minutes have passed and I haven seen even a shadow of my family. Are they here? Maybe they are already here, I just can see them because the gymnasium is full of people.

I stepped on the stage a little disappointed when my name was called to give a speech. That was a very long introduction for me that I didn manage to listen to because my attention was on something else. ”Thank you very much for that introduction, Miss Aimee Cortez, our school principal… And thank you to the university honors in Awards Council for the honor to deliver the response on behalf of the graduating batch of class 2018. ”

I continued my speech while continuing to look for my family in the crowd. Out of nowhere, I suddenly stopped speaking. I don know why I suddenly stopped speaking after I saw a human figure standing outside this gymnasium. Suddenly, my chest beat even stronger and faster.

I absentmindedly jumped off the stage and started walking towards it. Her back was turned to me so I knew she didn notice me approaching her. I was just a few steps closer to her when she suddenly walked away quickly. I followed her without thinking. I don know why nothing else comes to my mind other than following her.

Why is it like this? Why can I control myself? Why does it feel like someone is pushing me to follow that familiar figure? Why am I feeling this way? I do not understand.

I didn realize that as I continued to follow her, I was already on the street. I know I bump into people but I can turn to them to ask for forgiveness.

When I saw her stop walking, I stopped too. She was on the other side of the road. She checked the time on her wristwatch, then looked somewhere. I followed her gaze. My eyes widened and I smiled a little when I saw Dad and brother inside the car, happily talking. They are waiting for the green light.

I was about to wave at them when I saw the eight-wheeler truck speeding towards Dads position. I also looked in front of them, there was another eight-wheeler truck approaching them.

Suddenly, I don know what to do. I was confused. I wanted to run towards them but it was as if something was stopping my feet. I want to scream so they can hear me and get out of the car right away but its like theres duct tape over my mouth preventing me from speaking.

I only heard my voice when the car that Dad was driving got stuck by two big trucks. ”No! ” I looked again at the other side of the road where the person I was following was standing, but she was no longer there.

I don care if I get hit by a car. I quickly ran towards them and there I saw their bloody bodies. Their faces were full of blood. ”Dad, wake up! Brother! Brother, can you hear me? Open the door! Dad!!! ” I kept banging on the car window, hoping they would open it for me.

My tears kept falling, I couldn help but be hurt by what was happening.

”Dad! Dad! Open the door, please. Can you hear me? ” I saw him open his eyes slightly. He is struggling. I witnessed how they had an accident and it was very painful. He opened his mouth, trying to say something but he didn make it. His body fell and he completely closed his eyes. ”No! Dad! Please, wake up! ”

I saw a big rock near me. I used that to break the car window. I hugged Dad. ”Dad, wake up! Don close your eyes, please. Brother! Can you hear me?! ” I felt my dads hand on my face so I looked at him and held his hand.

He wanted to say something but he wasn strong enough to have a voice. ”I… ” I hugged him tightly while crying. ”I… Love you… ” I cried, even more, when I heard that from him. His voice was too weak, he was getting weak.

An ambulance came…

They
e trying to revive my Dad but he didn make it. He was hurt badly. My brother is still alive but hes not waking up.

”Please do everything you can to survive both of them. I am begging you! Please do everything! ” I cried as we approached the hospital.

When we got to the hospital, Dad was dead on arrival.

I kept crying and I can stop myself. I can come near his dead body. Hes not dead yet, right? Maybe they
e all just mistaken. Hes still alive like my brother! He can be dead! He has to attend my recognition day!

I decided to walk out of the hospital when I stopped crying. I ran out of tears.

My feet took me back to the university. I picked up my cell phone while walking because I heard someone text me earlier. It was Ivy saying that they are on the rooftop.

I need someone to comfort me. I need someone to cry to. I need my friends. I need Tyler.

I went straight to the rooftop. Walking clumsily and without energy, sometimes tears are flowing down my cheeks but I wipe them away immediately.

I opened the door to the rooftop when my eyes immediately landed on Tyler…

I quickly left there and ran while crying.

Why does everyone want to hurt me? Why is it that whoever else is important in your life and you love very much, will also hurt you too much. Was I born to hurt? Was I born to suffer? Fate is too playful. Can I be happy for a lifetime?

Wheres justice?!