I’m Not Going to Be Bullied By a Girl

like to do thank my dad for raising me for 14 years. Although I would prefer him to return to the university, but even as a Taobao store owner selling adult products and a porn commentator for the HHH club, I still treat him as my idol. His absurd life cannot hide his kindness and perseverance.

“Dad, you deserve a better life, let go of the past.”

“Take good care of the child in Auntie Rens belly, dont be too sad about losing me. If its a boy, give him the same name as me, and transfer the love you have for me to him as well.”

I guess its true the words of a man on his deathbed comes from his heart. I didnt even know I could say something so corny to my dad.

I didnt tell dad to be nice to Xiao Qin after he married Auntie Ren because I dont think my kind-hearted dad needed to be reminded.

He did not show any hostility to even Ai Mi, the daughter Ai ShuQiao had with the person she ran off with, let alone Xiao Qin, who he grew up watching.

Next, I used a lot of space in the diary to make a sincere apology to Ai Mi.

I died so soon after I promised I would take care of her for the rest of her life. It wasnt even enough time for Ai Mi to heal from her old wounds. Im not even sure whether if it was good or bad that I appeared in her life.

I wrote a lot of words and told Ai Mi a lot of things, including eating less chips and coke, so she wouldnt suffer from mouth ulcers again, and other miscellaneous things.

I didnt tell Ai Mi to “stay strong and brave and live on” in my diary because I felt with Ai Mis personality, she would continue on the path she chose.

Ai Mi has already suffered the death of someone she liked before, so she most likely will not die of grief. Instead it would be like what she said before, she would use alcohol to numb herself and live a degenerate life.

Although I dont want to see her wallow in depression, but theres nothing I could do when I am no longer in this world.

I finished Ai Mis part with these words:

“Im sorry, your brother could not keep his word. I cant eat roasted marshmallows with you anymore.”

How embarrassing, my eyes actually watered up.

Naturally, I also left a note for the class leader, the person who inspired me to write this diary.

The note was quite formal, unlike the note for my dad and Ai Mi, where there was a lot of emotion mixed in the message. It probably had to do with how the class leader was also a more serious person.

“Class leader, I hope you can become fulfilling your wish of becoming a police officer. Be careful when going against criminals, they are much more dangerous than me.”

“Um, even though Im gone, I at least fulfilled my promise to you and didnt become a criminal, right?”

The class leader was a very strong and independent woman. Even when she encounters bumps in her life, I believe she will face them bravely and move steadfastly towards her goals.

Who am I to her? A rotten apple she wants to save? A hooligan who once saved her but also caused her a lot of trouble? Or someone she will occasionally think about sadly deep in the night after she finishes a busy day of work?

I might be overthinking. Theres a lot I wanted to say, but I didnt write it down. Between the class leader and I, theres often more left unsaid than said, its a habit thats hard to change even at my final moment.

At the end of the note to the class leader, I warned Shu Zhe:

“Treat your sister well, or I wont let you go even if I become a ghost.”

I also lied to him and said that those shameful things of yours (referring to the nude photos I took of Shu Zhe after he was stripped naked by the Five Tigers), were given to Eunuch Cao to take care of and if he was caught taking advantage of his sister again, he would become famous online.

The class leader would also see the note, so I was both warning Shu Zhe while telling the class leader to be careful of her brother.

I felt that I should also say a couple of words to Winnie, who aspires to be Ai Mis bodyguard in the future.

“Its been fun and relaxing to play with you. Youre a good friend who is very loyal. I hope you can always be Ai Mis good friend too, but I can tell you now: Ai Mi is my biological sister, so since we were brothers (BFFs) , take good care of her for me. If there is anything you dont understand, you can ask Peng TouSi for help.”

“Also, dont be too sad, I wish you can become a god at LOL. I cant play with you anymore because Im waiting to be revived.”

I also mentioned some other people, including Auntie Ren, Bro Gang, Captain Guo SongTao, Shen ShaoYi, and even Director Cao and his son, but Im not going to go into detail.

Xiao Qin was left for last, mainly because I wasnt sure what I was going to say to Xiao Qin.

I could feel that without me, Xiao Qin will not live alone in this world.

What should I say to a girl like that?

My heart hurts. Is it the toxic effect of the butterfly, or is it something else?

How much longer will I live, what should I write for Xiao Qin?

I dont even know what kind of person Xiao Qin is to me, or what kind of person I am to her.

“Xiao Qin, do you really believe in a fairy tale world?”

I began my final farewell to Xiao Qin with a question.